The past 2 weeks have been hard. After a great day at the med school I was optimistic that our rough cut was just around the corner--then we got stuck. Things kind of went off track.
Today was the self-imposed deadline and the third and final act is still unresolved.
We've tried the last few scenes several different ways and haven't figured it out yet.
Victoria, the editor, goes back to her full time job soon. She extended her leave already and the editing budget is spent. There are so many unknowns.
Cutting the film apart has been harder than I thought it would be. Having an experienced editor who can see the project with fresh eyes has made a tremendous difference. Still, it's hard to accept that some of the elements and events we captured or characters we filmed just won't make it into the final cut.
So much time, energy, and money went into the travel, the shooting, the editing. It's hard to let go of the pieces.
I'm trying to be gentle with myself in this process. Of course things won't always go as expected, but when it's finally finished, it will be even better than I imagined it would be.
Thanks for joining me and supporting me in the process. We will get there.
In the meantime, I'm choosing to take this as yet another opportunity to learn to hold softly and let go of what isn't working.